time is our enemy. time is the thing that we both never have enough of, and yet can never seem to wait for it to end sometimes as well. long periods of waiting for the unsure is what is excrusciating sometimes in all it's wisdom. time is the thing that always leads us to the next phase of whatever it is we want to do, but is also the thing that can end whatever it is that we enjoy. they say patience is a virtue but sometimes it can be a virtue that none of us have. there's so many things to do in this world, why are we so scared to do any of them. it needs to change today. if there's somethjing you want to do, you should just do it fearlessly, owrrying not about what those around you will say, or not worrying about failing or rejection, but rather worrying about whether you will learn from the expereince. because experience is what, in the end, makes us what we are. denying that or ignoring that or not facing up to that only perpertuates the image of being "fake". and who can stand a fake person. i know holden caulfield hates them. i just cringe when i see low self-esteen over power a sense of a persons need to be themselves. because no matter how low your self esteem is, it should never contradict your sense of self. i know who i am. i know who i want to be. i know what i want to do.
the hardest thing in the world is to do.